Monday, January 30, 2017

The Cluttered Garden


A spiritual path is thought to be a process of simplifying; a weeding out of all the unnecessary clutter leaving room for truth.  It is supposed to lead us to an open state where we can unbiasedly experience life.  The Buddha said that the accumulation of knowledge may blind us from truth.  The pursuit of knowledge becomes a hazard when we cling too tightly to all of the facts that we are learning.  In our search for more answers, we lose sight of the simplistic wisdom that we already carry within us.

I am currently learning ancient practices that include lists of rituals meant to connect us with enlightenend wisdom.  But maybe in memorizing the fine details of each ritual, the true teaching is lost.

When I sit through the chanting practices, I do feel a strong surge of energy in the room.  There is something powerful about coming together under a sacred roof and concentrating our energy towards a larger purpose.  I however also feel a lot of resistance and skepticism.  Not one of the western practitioners actually understands the Tibetan words that they are chanting.  Their pronunciation and rhythm are inaccurate and inconsistent.  The one Tibetan present does not chant because in his culture a ritual is not done or heard by just anyone.  An individual has to go through several levels of guidance before he is considered ready to hear one of these chants.  So he sits silently and keeps his pure practice to himself.  When I try to chant, I feel like a fraud using the rituals of another as stepping stones on a spiritual journey that should be my own.

I can’t help but feel like these practices are cluttering the simplicity that one should be cultivating in spirituality.  It feels as though I am clinging to ancient practices that someone else in a distant culture used on their spiritual journey rather than using what is around me here and now to build a more accessible and relevant path.  Everything that I have experienced with meditation until now has taught me to use the facts of life as my practice tools.  This allowed me to use every life experience as part of my spiritual journey.  I did not have to memorize chants and rituals to access the wisdom that is already a part of me. 

My question still stands.  Are ritualistic practices helping or hindering the realization of truth?     
      
  

Monday, January 23, 2017

The Wise Owl


Tibetan Buddhists hold teachers in very high regard.  They believe that one cannot reach enlightenment without following the guidance of another.  In the Western world, we have less respect for teachers.  We like to think that we can reach our highest potential on our own two feet, and don’t like to be told that we need someone else to do anything.  I have been working on defining the role of a teacher for years.  Through my 9 years of teaching and my 2 years of master’s studies, the true definition was still not clear to me.  Who is qualified to teach others?  What should the student teacher relationship look like?  Are teachers really that important?  I sent this question out into the universe and this morning I was given the most comprehensive answer that I have ever received.

Upon arriving at Tara Mandala, I was shocked at the feedback that students were giving on the head Lama.  They were disillusioned and disappointed by the one that they called teacher.  They had come to the center with expectations of what kind of teachings they should receive and felt that these expectations were not being met.  There was a lack of respect in both directions.  Students felt disrespected and undervalued by the Lama and the Lama felt betrayed and disrespected by her students.  This situation put me right back into my classes in Switzerland when I was standing in front of my professor asking for help and was told that the only help she gives is what is presented in class and that if I can’t succeed with that, I shouldn’t be in the program.  She told me that she was a language professional and based on her judgements I was incapable of proceeding in the program and should give up.  This moment changed the direction of my life.  I now wanted to redefine the role of a teacher and teach teachers how to fill their role respectfully.

Jampala is a Tibetan man in his 60’s who has been studying Buddhism his whole life.  He is now teaching Tibetan language classes at Tara Mandala.  After class, I stayed to ask Jampala what he thought the role of a teacher is.  He said that it is to open the students’ eyes to teachings that he or she would be unable to see otherwise.  When I asked him what the student teacher relationship looked like he explained that at the beginning, it is the student’s job to evaluate the teacher.  He must watch closely and study everything that the teacher does and says.  He must decide if the teacher is worthy or not.  Once the student decides to take on a teacher, he must ask permission and it is then the teacher’s job to evaluate the student.  If the teacher accepts the student, then they are forever linked.  At this moment, the student must stop questioning the teacher and trust in him completely.  This unconditional full-hearted trust is something that I have never felt for anyone.  

I then began to wonder if this ancient system of hierarchy was really valid today.  Are there really any beings capable of filling these enormous shoes?  Can we get all of the teachings that we need from one person?  When I was reading the book Siddharta by Herman Hesse, I found a different definition of a teacher.  He writes the words of Siddharta saying, “Knowledge can be communicated, but not wisdom.  One can find it, live it, be fortified by it, do wonders through it, but one cannot communicate and teach it.  The potential hidden Buddha must be recognized in everything.  The Buddha exists in the robber and dice player; the robber exists in the Brahmin.  Everything is perfect, everything is the Brahmin.  Every wind, every cloud, every bird, every beetle is equally divine and knows and can teach just as well as an esteemed teacher.”  When the Buddha denounced the teachings of all religious teachers, he was not saying that he did not need a teacher.  He was seeing the greater truth and finding teachers in all things.

This lesson was confirmed for me this morning.  During a reading meditation in which the first 45 minutes were spent in silent meditation followed by a group reading. The page that was read happened to be a Tibetan description of a teacher.  In the 45 minutes that followed every member of the community shared their thoughts and ideas on what it means to be and have a teacher.  In that moment every member of the community transformed into my teacher.  I listened to each of their beautiful and insightful comments soaking in the wisdom that they were giving me.  Each one had a different perspective on the role a teacher plays on a spiritual journey and each one contained just as much truth as all the others.  The truth is that if we are open to receiving teachings, everything and everyone becomes our teacher.  Looked at through the right lenses even the harshest and seemingly incompetent teachers can show us the way to enlightenment.                       

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

A Cold Oasis



Many people go to spiritual centers seeking a perfect place where they can finally find peace and work on themselves.  Upon arriving, they find that all of the triggers of everyday life have followed them.  There is that one guy who chews too loudly, that lady who always complains about the food, that guy who stands a little too close as he tells you that you are something special, and that person in charge who has no idea how to run a team.  Perfection doesn’t exist.  A practice center without challenges would not be conducive to growth.  

Living in community is one of the most rewarding and most trying experiences I’ve ever had.  There is no avoiding the interactions that stir up your emotional turmoil.  Instead of running away from these interactions you have to go inward and find the compassion necessary to face someone else’s demons without triggering your own.  We can blame others for causing our discomfort and we may believe that avoiding that person will solve our problem.  The truth is that until we confront what is causing that discomfort within us, there will always be someone in our lives capable of triggering it.  

The problem does not lie in the other but within ourselves.  If the wind is able to blow your house down, you can’t go pick a fight with the wind.  You have to go rebuild your foundation.  The same is true for your mental state.  If an individual is capable of destabilizing you, then removing that person from your life won’t fix the problem.  You have to go inward and rebuild your internal foundation.  If you go to a spiritual center to avoid all difficult interactions, then you will be gravely disappointed.  A practice center simply provides the space necessary for internal healing.  The challenging relationships are provided free of charge to help you with this process.  The only way to find that perfect place of peace is to build it within yourself.